Falling
Feels like losing my mind,
Gasping for oxygen,
Wishing to rewind.
Falling
Feels so out of control
How can I feel so empty
If my life is so full?
Falling
Feels like losing my way
Myriad words,
But nothing to say.
Falling
Always feeling helpless
Lost and alone,
Is needing you selfish?
Falling
Into the arms of grace
And the loving smile
That I know awaits.
I trusted you with secrets no one else would understand
You reached out to me, and so I learned to take your hand.
My tears, my frustrations, my anger, and fears
I poured out to you, and you would always hear.
I thought you knew me better than I even knew myself
I thought I could trust you to guard my situations to yourself
But in my time of greatest need, you were there to listen to me,
And then turned around and shared my problems-a betrayal painfully complete.
I hope you understand the trust that you have breached,
And that I don't want your help anymore if this is what friendship means.
I don't need your "concern"; save your s
The walls melt down around me.
You're the only thing that I see.
My heart jumps knowing that you've found me.
And your smile reminds me
Of how in love I am…
Let me show you one last time.
Let me hold you; close your eyes.
Let me take you, make you mine.
Let me love you one last time.
The clock just stops going.
But words are ever flowing.
You'll fall asleep knowing
That my love is ever growing;
And I am so in love…
Let me show you one last time.
Let me hold you; close your eyes.
Let me take you, make you mine.
Let me love you one last time.
Reeling from the impact of a thousand twisted lies
Disbelief turns assurance into mental compromise.
Fleeting strength diminishes into weakness I despise
Nightmarish is this reality: my life, I realize.
Abundance of uncertainty has gouged out both my eyes;
Effects of my heart's blindness are a fatal surprise.
The loss of you would kill me quick, my heart, my pulse, my prize,
And even slipping hurts me, as my fragile state implies.
As we sit on the brink
Of the unknown, taunting fate,
We breathe the tales
We've always heard.
As we decide the time
Has come, no turning back,
We breathe the lives
Of a thousand tortured souls.
As we leave the ledge
And we feel the rush of air,
We breathe the contentment
Of those who have gone before.
As we near the end of
All that is known to us
We breathe and know all
There is to know.
We have faced death and we
Have come back to
Breathe.
I lay there shackled for too many years,
So long I forgot I was alive.
My only companion was the voice of my fears,
My only goal was to somehow survive.
The hours passed on far too slowly,
And the silence was too loud.
My home was the cold stone floor below me,
But I accepted my prison unbowed.
I dreamed away the hours each day
In a place where I was free.
Then woke up to the horror I faced
In a prison of conformity.
But now I've broken all my chains,
They lie shattered at my feet.
My dream for a better future remains,
And I will never accept defeat.
I stand alone in the midst of my thoughts
And breathe the fresh air of
Because to give up now would be too easy,
And to continue would only be right.
Because although I don't always agree,
I do agree some of the time.
Because to take the low road
Has never really satisfied,
And to walk away right now, I think
A part of me would be deprived.
Because I made up my mind to do it,
Even though it's not what I planned.
Because I'm learning things right now
That I'd never otherwise understand.
Because it's almost over now
And the best is yet to come.
Because to give up means I've lost,
And I have the option of winning so young.
Because there is a purpose
I may never understand.
Because there is a r
Looking back on days of long ago,
I have no regrets of letting go.
Words came easy because I had much to say,
But life got more painful each and every day.
I was trying to love somebody that wasn't for me,
I was trying to tell him, but he refused to see.
My spirit began to fall below the floor,
And the scars on my skin numbered more.
I only wanted to run and hide from life;
I wanted to forget humanities' strife.
Events of everyday became the catacombs I live in,
Everything I did became a shackle of this prison.
If once you've hit rock bottom, you can only rise,
How come nobody seemed to hear my desperate cries?
Concrete as my pi
For The Memory, For The Pain by your-fantine, literature
Literature
For The Memory, For The Pain
She pulled out a knife.
She did it again today,
To feel again tomorrow.
Everyone turned on her,
Now only herself remains.
So she cut today
To feel tomorrow.
She remembered
When things were different,
When he still loved her.
Daddy was still around,
And no one had betrayed her.
But mom died, and dad lied,
And no one wants to
Watch over her now.
She never knew
What it was like
To feel loved without a doubt.
Everyone promised her the world,
Promised her love.
They said they'd watch after her,
Said there was a God above.
She's walking in a world
Of material men
As if she's a ghost.
She remains silent inside,
And wishe
The tears were glistening,
Sliding down her smooth skin.
What could I do to satisfy
The longing within?
I looked at her and smiled.
Happiness used to bring her to;
Now she just looked back and said,
"I can't be happy without you."
The wet cheeks glistened when the sun
Shone on the face I couldn't touch.
Her lips were soft and gentle,
But the memory wasn't much.
I need her hair between my hands,
Her breath whispering down
Upon my face, and then
The smile will come around.
Before, I had no basis for any dislike. But now, I just hate him. Perhaps there is no justification for such intense, unchanging hatred. But never-the-less, I hate him. I hate him for the things with which he nothing to do. I hate him simply for…everything bad in this world. I hate him for who he is. I hate him for what others would explain with the simple phrase 'human nature' or 'animal instinct' or 'everyone does it'. And although my extreme hatred may have no verbal or logical or justifiable explanation, it has become so strong within me that I am sick. I am sick in my mind. I am hurt deeply, and feel more pain than just my own. I feel ev
I sit, and I laugh
As I watch the very time I grasp
Elapse
Between my fingertips
And wonder what this is.
A place where everything around me stops,
And all the shields that surrounded me drop.
The seconds melt and bend and scream in agony,
So I wonder what this means to me.
I know that soon, they'll helplessly fall
Over the top of the waterfall
On the edge of it all,
And I will hear them call,
But time has frozen in its tracks,
And everyone has turned their backs
From all the questions requiring real answers,
Betraying and destroying this world like cancer.
So I twist, and I turn;
I itch, and I burn,
And yet, I am calm at l
I put pressure on your fragile hips;
Feel the love flow through my fingertips.
I caress you, kiss your luscious lips,
And put pressure on your fragile hips.
Left breathless by the feel of your skin
Against mine; it's the sweetest sin.
Let me hold you, and take it all in,
Left breathless by the feel of your skin.
I can feel your heartbeat matching mine.
Together, our hearts count out the time.
Lay in the night and let it all pass us by.
I can feel your heartbeat matching mine.
I can feel your breath upon my brow.
Nothing could tear me from you now.
I'm so in love, and couldn't let you down.
I can feel your breath upon my brow.
I wish I had the words to say,
To tell you 'I love you' every day.
Now my consciousness fades,
But everything'll be okay.
I wish I could hold you all the time,
And be sure that you're forever mine.
Now the darkness falls over us,
And I ask you once more for your trust.
Take my hand, and let's walk through
All my memories of you,
Good and bad, and through it all,
You know I'll be here when you call.
No matter what, my love is true;
I'll be here as long as you want me to.
There's nothing I can say or do
To fully express my love for you.
I see your hurt; I see your pain;
I see the life you love in vain,
But let it all wash awa
Beautiful little girl, where have you been?
Have you been hiding away again?
You've been sitting here stalling for a while,
But your mother's calling out for her child.
So you'd best run along now, and don't be late;
Buckle down, child, and face your dark fate.
I can see that you are scared to go home,
Scared because you'll be walking alone,
Walking down this path of misery;
Don't lose sight of the one light that you see.
It may be dim, but at least it's there at all;
Listen in the night to hear an Angel's call.
You walked that dark path of misery on your own,
But I promise, child, you were never alone.
I flew along beside
I was...
Trapped by imaginary walls of my fate,
Deceived by the concept that I couldn't escape,
Tied down in this place where all hope has died,
Tricked into thinking I'd never break outside,
Stifled by my friends who knew nothing but war,
Still feeling guilty for what I'd messed up before.
I'll always be here in this dead-end life of mine,
My mind turned away by the city limit signs.
But I now see a way out of this life I live in,
A way to break free from this concrete prison.
No longer bitter towards this place for its wealth,
No longer hating myself or anyone else.
I finally understand what it will take to feel;
If I want to
Desiring something I doubt I'll ever obtain;
Thoughts racing through my mind, heart drenched in pain;
Wishing to know that for once someone cares;
Wanting a connection, something that we share.
Desiring something I doubt I'll ever obtain;
Reminiscing of my past, heart drenched in pain;
Wishing to awake from this oppressive nightmare;
Wanting to be able to escape my despair.
Desiring something I doubt I'll ever obtain;
Scars never go away, they never even fade;
I'm beginning to give in to this daily wear and tear;
In my mind I whisper a desperate prayer.
Desiring something I doubt I'll ever obtain;
My heart and mind tell me that I
My life's so full, but I'm still so empty;
A hollow aching in my chest.
My fearful mind keeps my heart beating;
I'm too afraid to try my best.
I thought I felt real, pure emotion,
Only to realize it was all a lie;
I wanted my heart to feel true devotion,
But my mind's not willing to try.
A tranquil indifference settles over me;
No pain, or anger, or joy; no tears.
My mind cries out in agony;
I scream and shout, but no one hears.
I can't blame them because this plea's not real;
I can scream, and I can shout, but I'll never feel.
In the darkness lays understanding. Understanding of what one cannot see in the light. Understanding of what is lost when the light shines on the shadows. In the darkness rests reassurance. Reassurance to the uneasy, enlightened mind. Reassurance that back in the darkness, everything will once again be the same. Reassurance of the constant, comforting stability found only in the shadows. In the darkness brews inspiration. Inspiration to the long uninspired mind. Inspiration to create and to destroy. Inspiration to find beauty and to be beautiful. Inspiration to be inspired and to inspire.
We have never seen a dawn
that has not died within an hour.
But here's one now,
and, unsure if it has lied or not,
I check your eyes:
The sun's still struggling to get inside,
the small bright spots of fingertips
tugging lightly at your lids.
And I, from a family of cowards,
am hesitant to wake you,
though not so much as to stop my lowered hand
from moving upwards,
stilling only when you start to stir
and stretch; and then exhale
in a way that makes me flush,
then pale, as I, too,
drift back to sleep,
to wait until the midday sun
has come and gone
and left us one.
The moon is out
and so are we, sitting, nestled
in the bu
I put pressure on your fragile hips;
Feel the love flow through my fingertips.
I caress you, kiss your luscious lips,
And put pressure on your fragile hips.
Left breathless by the feel of your skin
Against mine; it's the sweetest sin.
Let me hold you, and take it all in,
Left breathless by the feel of your skin.
I can feel your heartbeat matching mine.
Together, our hearts count out the time.
Lay in the night and let it all pass us by.
I can feel your heartbeat matching mine.
I can feel your breath upon my brow.
Nothing could tear me from you now.
I'm so in love, and couldn't let you down.
I can feel your breath upon my brow.
Current Residence: fucking east cupcake Favourite genre of music: rock, punk, metal, techno, industrial, anything really as long as it's good music...original... Favourite style of art: preferably macabre, but I don't really care as long as it's original and creative, and good work. Skin of choice: only his
Favourite Visual Artist
Witch Baby, Bionic
Favourite Movies
phantom, million dollar baby, underworld...
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Killers, Strokes, Lifehouse, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Kelly Clarkson, Pantera, Soulfly, AsI Lay Dying
Favourite Writers
Francesca Lia Block, Edgar Allan Poe, Anne Rice, Mary Shelley
Dear Angel,
Damn it's been forever. Life's just been so crazy...well I guess that's no excuse...I watch myself decay every day and wonder why I'm here. What am I doing? I miss me...I miss me so much. When she asked me if I thought things would be wierd when you came back, I didn't realize, but reading your thing...well it seemed liek you might be yourself again...the self I used to know...and now I wonder where myself is...you know, the one you used to know...the one we both feel in love with...I dunno. I just dunno. I want you to know that that same girl is still here...I just haven't made tiem for her lately...I haven't written, I haven't
Dear Angel,
This is another exerpt from a letter I was writing someone...
"...I know...I know...sometimes I just get so frustrated with the way things are, and the way I feel stifled, and trapped, and like I can't just come out and be me...the person only a few people actually know. I feel like lately, I've been standing up for myself a little more, but I still feel like I get walked on, and that I am still trapped for two more years...and even after that...if things don't go as planned, and my parents end up helping me with college...then they have a say in my life still...they can still tell me that I am not being wise, and to forget my
Dear Angel,
This is an exerpt from a letter I was writing to someone, and I guess it's kind of what I wanted to say after reading your journal...
"...I don't want to be there in those halls alone again. It's so hard to explain...freshman year was so hard for me...life wasn't the same as it is now...and I...was unhappy. I had tons of friends and was solid....good grades...whatever...but none of that mattered...what made it all worthwhile was when I met my best friend. It was durning The Lion, The Witch, And The Wardrobe...and we didn't really hit it off at first or anything like that...we were not the usual type...both of us had endured many